“I wait for the LORD, my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope. I wait for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning.” Psalm 130:5-6
One Scripture study tool I find really useful is looking for any repeated words in a passage. Often, they’re a clue to an important point being made. Here, the word “wait” is mentioned not just twice, but five times – so we’d better pay attention!
Before this in Psalm 130, the author shares how upset he has been: crying out to the Lord, and feeling almost buried under the weight of his sin. But he also declares that with God “there is forgiveness.” Then, heading into verse 5, comes a growing desire to be in the Lord’s presence.
What stands out to me is how the word “wait” is used in such a poetic way to build up anticipation. He doesn’t just wait passively, does he? “My whole being waits,” he writes. That evokes an image in my mind of someone actively reaching. And to illustrate, he compares himself to a night watchman finishing his shift, searching the sky eagerly for signs of a new day.
I love this kind of excitement about spending time with God. And it leads me to ask: how much do I look forward to my own worship time?
“The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness…” Jeremiah 31:3
I don’t know about you, but I have a hard time wrapping my head around words like “everlasting”. I suppose that says something about me – too fickle, perhaps, or afraid of commitment…Well, Scripture is actually full of those kinds of words: forever; eternal; unchanging, to name a few. And in practically every case, those words are describing God’s love – for flighty little me – for all of us.
Recently, I was pondering the reason why I’ve always struggled so much with this aspect of God’s character. Part of it, I know, is a natural bent toward guilt, as well as a sense of my own weaknesses. You know, basically feeling that I don’t deserve such amazing affection. I’ve faced and prayed through those faulty thoughts before, and will keep doing so.
I think, though, one of the biggest problems I have with “everlasting”-type words is that I think too much about them. Do you ever do that? I try to imagine what forever looks like, or how I’ll spend each day of eternity. But I can’t. I always end up just feeling overwhelmed and unsure.
Here’s what came to me this week: I’m not equipped to figure any of this out. The fullness of His love is part of a Divine mystery far beyond my ability to understand. AND THAT’S OKAY. In fact, that is how God designed it. I think my part in all this delight in those promises, to accept His gifts by faith rather than understanding.
Can I do that??