“May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed.” Psalm 20:16
I saw the movie “La La Land” this past weekend, and enjoyed it immensely. Without giving too much away, it’s the story of young, hopeful performers in Los Angeles, two of whom fall in love. One of the main characters sang a song called “The Ones Who Dream”, a sweet and sincere tribute to people who create. Here’s how the chorus goes:
Here’s to the ones who dream
Foolish as they may seem
Here’s to the hearts that ache
Here’s to the mess we make
Walking out of the theater, memories of my own stab at fame back in my 20’s came to mind. I could relate to all the feelings of longing and angst the characters expressed. It was a time filled with tremendous energy – when every audition was fraught with both hope and anxiety. After several crazy years I finally had to step back and look at things more realistically. It was the right thing to do, but painful. After all, I was walking away from a dream I’d had since childhood.
Ironically, insecurity was probably my strongest trait back then. And since I had no relationship with God, I was on my own. My answer to feelings of insecurity was to push myself harder, usually with affirmations like I am talented and special! Positive thinking had it’s limits, though, and so did my own strength.
Like the music in the movie, letting go of my dream to make the big time was bittersweet. But I realize now that doing that opened the door to a whole other kind of life. God had actually planted a desire in my heart that went deeper than artistic success, and His plan was to make my best dreams come true.
I’m sure no one who made “La La Land” intended it to have any kind of message about God. But for me, the story was a great reminder of how tough life is without Him, and how blessed I am to have His strength and vision for my journey.