“The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness…” Jeremiah 31:3
I don’t know about you, but I have a hard time wrapping my head around words like “everlasting”. I suppose that says something about me – too fickle, perhaps, or afraid of commitment…Well, Scripture is actually full of those kinds of words: forever; eternal; unchanging, to name a few. And in practically every case, those words are describing God’s love – for flighty little me – for all of us.
Recently, I was pondering the reason why I’ve always struggled so much with this aspect of God’s character. Part of it, I know, is a natural bent toward guilt, as well as a sense of my own weaknesses. You know, basically feeling that I don’t deserve such amazing affection. I’ve faced and prayed through those faulty thoughts before, and will keep doing so.
I think, though, one of the biggest problems I have with “everlasting”-type words is that I think too much about them. Do you ever do that? I try to imagine what forever looks like, or how I’ll spend each day of eternity. But I can’t. I always end up just feeling overwhelmed and unsure.
Here’s what came to me this week: I’m not equipped to figure any of this out. The fullness of His love is part of a Divine mystery far beyond my ability to understand. AND THAT’S OKAY. In fact, that is how God designed it. I think my part in all this delight in those promises, to accept His gifts by faith rather than understanding.
Can I do that??