The thought of God being present in every moment of my life used to make me uneasy. He’s watching me, and will notice when I screw up. Being so aware of Him made me feel vulnerable, almost under a microscope, and I sometimes wanted to hide. God’s desire to remain with His people wasn’t designed to be a threatening thing, though. Rather, He wants to reassure us that He knows our struggles and is already working on our behalf.
I’ve come to see the comfort in Him being near, because it means He loves me deeply. And, I often feel the challenge that comes with Him staying close, because it means what I do really matters to Him. Embracing the truth of God’s continuous presence has actually erased the fear and replaced it with more confidence. I know He always sets wrong things right, and sets me back on the narrow path.
“That’s why we need to practice the presence of God: Not just to acknowledge in some philosophical way that God is present, but to rehearse, to repeat, to work and rework our knowledge that even though we don’t see Him and sometimes don’t feel Him, He is there. He is here. When we practice the presence of God, we train ourselves to desire His presence—to resist our temptation to flee Him. We also train ourselves to experience His presence—to resist our temptation to think that He flees us. In other words, the practice of the presence of God helps us to live between the temptations of Jonah bound for Tarshish and John bound in prison. Jonah is the prophet who wants to abandon God. John is the prophet who feels abandoned by God.”
“Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?”
“Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord